I love my new-found spirituality!
Who would have thought I would find myself in Haiti?!
Learning to appreciate myself, give service whole heartedly, smile freely, laugh freely… Finding happiness within my humble surroundings.
And my surroundings is the spiritual environment of the Sathya Sai Baba centre in Port-au-Prince which provides food for 2000 children living in various camps each day. Volunteering here has been more fulfilling than I could have ever imagined.
However despite finding myself… I’m now finding I’m missing myself!
Perhaps it’s due to the weekend drawing closer that I’m starting to crave the fun-loving Kai… The Kai ‘on a good day‘ (and night come to think of it)!
Can spirituality and social night life go hand in hand?
Since being in Haiti I haven’t had the ‘pleasure’ of exploring the night life. Anyone who knows me will agree this is unlike me! No, finding spirituality hasn’t diminished my urge to hit the town at night… The foundations I typically explore in every city I visit- the dance floor!
However there are many factors that have hindered my chances of exploring the social scene since my arrival from the Dominican Republic almost one month ago.
First is security. It goes without saying that Port-au-Prince isn’t the safest of cities for me to venture around alone at night. So when I got an invite from a female couchsurfer to join her and some friends for drinks, of course I was all up for it! But when she said I should jump on a moto-taxi (at 11pm)?!… Lets just say I cherish my life more than sipping on beers all night! I’m not desperate, so- thanks but no thanks!!
Another factor is that the city doesn’t have a taxi system! There are NO taxis! It took me a while to notice this, let alone register it… There-are-no-taxis?… My independence is stripped! I am reliant on others to take me out…
And the one time tee-total Shanti Paudel, a journalist and one of the coordinators of the centre, kindly offered to take me out for a drink last sunday, that was when the streets of Pention-ville were uncannyingly silent… There had been a drive-by shooting of a police man just an hour before we arrived. All the pubs and drinking spots were closed… (Though the strip clubs were still running- typical)! So I ended up sitting in the car sipping on my first Prestige beer, in the not so prestige settings of a petrol (gas) station.
“It wasn’t meant to be” Shanti calmly explained.
Of course it wasn’t! What are the chances a cop gets shot on the night I finally hit town?! I’m learning that God’s mysterious ways can also work against my wishes (I can’t always have it my way)!
So for over three weeks since I’ve been here I haven’t experienced the night life. If I wasn’t content with the spiritual experience I am encountering, I would have asked myself; “What am I? A nun?!”
No, I’m not a nun, neither do I want to be one. I’m just a young woman who would like to adapt spirituality into my routine- not just during my travels. To enhance myself in every way possible. Because surely there has to be more to life then just breathing and being!… And there is indeed! I have felt the power of knowing God… Of knowing my worthiness. How do I incorporate this divinity into my everyday life? I’m not trying to change drastically or be confined to a monastery… That would be a lie to myself…
So despite finding myself in Haiti… I’m missing myself elsewhere!
I miss the fun-loving Kai that straps on her high heels and walks tall with confidence…
I miss the Kai who’s first on the dance floor…
The Kai who paints her lips red (and the town to match)
And the girl who can’t say no to an innocent glass of bubbly for good-times sake (always drink responsibly)!
The Kai who ‘flaunts it coz she has it!’
The one you’d better approach with caution… Otherwise don’t approach at all!
The one who attracts like-minded positive people (even on a night out!)
This is partly who I am… And I could never completely get ride of these traits. Nor am I willing to because we are in this wonderful world to indulge in its beauty… To heighten our senses by every sight, every touch, every taste and sound.
I’m not willing to say good-bye to her… My outer ego who twists things up a notch!
With her life is spontaneous…
Life is unpredictable…
Life is good…
And life is fun!
Surely I can still be me and have spirituality?…
Like with Yoga, the balance needs to be right!…
My journey continues!
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- Finding myself here… Sathya Sai Centre, Haiti (travelmakerkai.com)
- Drive-by shooting Haiti… Pt1 (travelmakerkai.com)
- Hop on board!.. Join me on my journey in Haiti! (travelmakerkai.com)
- Get Spiritual – Miss Kay La Jolla (misskaylajolla.wordpress.com)
- From the Sathya Sai (World Foundation) Centre Haiti… Bless the food (travelmakerkai.com)